Last year, I was asked to be a contributor to “The Greatest Gift Project”…
A project founded by Laura of Finding Home.
A forum to write about someone who has inspired you…
Yesterday, I lost “my inspiration”…She lost her battle of 30 years on dialysis.
Ruth was one of my closest and dearest friends…we have known each other since Jr. High School.
So today I want to share this again… “My Letter to Ruth”
When life gets hectic…when I think that things do not go as perfectly as planned…those bumps in the road, I turn to my “Ruthie Perspective Box”…I reach into it and get my inspiration, of how life is so delicate… that we should live in the moment, to have undenying faith that life is good.
You struggle with an illness that took away your mother, and then your sister…An illness that was dealt to you genetically and causes you to rely on a dialysis machine to survive…Your doctors call you a miracle…as they do not know of anyone who has survived this long on dialysis…but you tell them that it is your FAITH that gets you through.
You have struggled with many hospitalizations and complications…the last one actually brought you to the state of death…it was then when you had that heavenly experience….the one that many people tell about when they actually meet death and come back….like you did..
I remember when I was finally able to talk to you after you being unconscious for several days…you spoke of your experience in seeing The Heavenly Father…..you said it was truly Him…You told us of the indescribable feeling of warmth and love..you wanted to stay…He said that he was sending you back…that your work on earth was not complete…and He is right…because you put perspective in our lives and joy to your family…your grandchildren.
I know that many of your days are difficult…with low energy and all the trials and tribulations relating to your illness…but YOU NEVER, NEVER COMPLAIN….you are always HAPPY…happy to be alive.
You called me tonight…it was like an angel tapping you on the shoulder and telling you to call me….I was overwhelmed with life’s hectic “stuff”…..You wanted me to know how much better you were feeling after your surgery…the emergency surgery you had the day after our visit..You almost bled to death in HomeGoods..going for that tablecloth we both admired…you laugh…you take it all in stride…Never, ever a pity party for you!!..
Your phone call to me was to say that I was a “little bird” in your life…that I come flying into your life and give you “joy”…what???…me?….you are the one who gives me joy!…You thanked me for all the things that I do for you…I never think of those little things…because when you do things for each other, it is out of love…
I cried after our phone call…the craziness of life at this particular time..just floated away…like the bird…you are truly an angel on earth…Jesus sent you back to spread joy and inspiration to all of us!!!…
I am truly blessed with so many people in my life who are an inspiration to me…like my wonderful husband and many friends and family…but Ruth you are truly my angel, a lifelong friend…..you show me how to enjoy life and all that is good…and to take time to smell the roses!
You know how much we love you!!
Ruth was my “angel on Earth”…and now she is my angel in Heaven…
Sweet Ruthie, I shall miss you every day of my life….Rest in peace my dear, dear friend.